"I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your wonders of old." (Psalm 77:11)
Psalm 77 is one of the most honest prayers in the Psalter. The psalmist is in acute distress: he cries to God through the night and is not comforted. His soul refuses to be consoled. He asks the most painful questions a believer can ask: has God forgotten to be gracious? Has his steadfast love ceased? Has he in anger shut up his compassion? These are not questions of atheism. They are the questions of a person who believes deeply and whose belief makes the silence unbearable.
The turn comes in verse 10 and it is entirely an act of the will, not a change in circumstances: I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your wonders of old. Memory becomes the bridge over the abyss of present experience. He cannot feel God now, but he knows what God has done: the Red Sea parted, the waters trembled, the earth shook. The one who did those things is still the God of this night. The Catechism calls this kind of perseverance in prayer the victory of faith: choosing to trust based on the history of God's acts even when present experience yields nothing (CCC 2742).
Brothers and sisters, in the dark nights of faith, the discipline of remembrance is what keeps the soul alive. What has God done for you? Name it. Write it down. In the moments when prayer returns nothing and the silence is suffocating, return to what you know he has already done. He who parted the Red Sea is still present in the night you cannot see through.
Lord God, when your silence feels like abandonment, teach us the prayer of Psalm 77: I will remember your wonders of old. Sustain our faith with memory until feeling returns. You led your people through the wilderness and left no trace of your footsteps. Lead us through our wilderness too. Through Christ our Lord. Amen.