"As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God." (Psalm 42:1)
Psalm 42 opens with one of the most beloved images in the Psalter: As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? The deer panting for water is not a peaceful image. It is an image of urgent, life-threatening need. The animal has been running, probably from a predator, and now it is in desperate need of water. Without it, it will die. The psalmist uses this image deliberately: the soul's need for God is not a mild preference or a spiritual luxury. It is as urgent as thirst, as necessary as water. To be without God is to be in the condition of the dying animal.
The immediate context of this urgent longing is exile: the psalmist is separated from the Temple, from the place of worship, surrounded by enemies who taunt him, asking where his God is. He remembers what it was like to lead the procession to the house of God with shouts of joy and praise. Now he is far from that, by the waters of the Jordan and the heights of Hermon, and the memory of worship intensifies the longing.
Three times in Psalms 42 and 43 (which were originally one psalm) the same refrain appears: Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Saviour and my God. The psalmist speaks to his own soul, interrogates his own depression, challenges his own despair with the counter-question: why? The soul does not answer the question, but the asking is itself an act of faith. It refuses to let the downcast condition have the last word. Put your hope in God. I will yet praise him.
The Catechism cites this psalm in its teaching on prayer: the longing of the soul for God is itself a prayer, a form of seeking that God honours (CCC 2560). The panting deer is already a prayer. The thirst is already an orientation toward the one who alone can satisfy it.
Brothers and sisters, when your soul is downcast and your spirit is within you in turmoil, speak to it the refrain of Psalm 42. Why are you downcast, O my soul? Put your hope in God. I will yet praise him. Not because the darkness has lifted, but because the God in whom you hope is the same God who will bring the light. The panting is the prayer. Bring your thirst to the only source that satisfies it.
My soul thirsts for you, the living God. As the deer pants for streams of water, I pant for you. Why are you downcast, O my soul? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Saviour and my God. Through Christ our Lord. Amen.